my love, my life

Heterogeneous Human

maggiewuster:

Sometimes I feel like a mixture of many different people, places, things…
and I forget where I stand in the midst of conflicting views and values.

Sometimes I feel angelic, soft, like a porcelain pearl
there are other moments where I just want to hold a gun and just shoot cans.

Sometimes I feel like I want to become a superhero and save, 
but there are other moments when I spend my time, energy, and money recklessly.

Sometimes I close my doors, close my eyes, and close my heart
but there are moments where I just want to rip off all my clothes and open my heart to anyone and everyone.

Sometimes I braid my hair, put on a classy dress, and indulge
but there are moments where I just want to  live on the streets with absolutely nothing

Sometimes I feel like curling up in a ball just to cry 
but there are other moments where I tighten my muscles, let the sweat drip from my forehead, and face my challenges with no fears

Sometimes I lose track of time and forget responsibility,
but there are moments where I make lists, follow up on my duties, and I’m focused.

Sometimes I’m just afraid of judgement,
but there are moments when I forget what people think.

Sometimes I’m so sure of what I want
but there are other situations where my actions prove otherwise. 

Sometimes I’m just myself, open and lighthearted
but there are other moments when I find beauty in mystery and darkness.

Sometimes I simply over-think
but there are moments when I don’t think at all.  

Sometimes I just mess with my own mind.  

Thank you for putting it into words.